someone tell me why i hate myself so much
jesus christ i’m such a worthless sack of shit why does anyone talk to me
i’m not pretty i’m not nice i’m not smart i’m not talented
i have no future i have nothing to offer
i hate every government that exists
i hate that i’m going to die no matter what
i hate that no one’s compassionate and everything’s greedy
i hate that in america you have to struggle to stay healthy because insurance costs so much
i hate that food is poisonous and I fucking HATE that that’s only half the reason i don’t eat anymore
i hate that no matter how thin i get i will never be pretty enough for my own standards
i hate that society has placed those standards on me
i hate school
i hate my parents
i hate that since i’m a fairly attractive fairly wealthy white person the way i feel holds no weight
i hate panic attacks
i hate uncertainty
i hate that i hate so much
i’m not going to college so i’m going to end up jobless and sad and weighed down by all the things that come with being a person and i’m going to kill myself eventually anyway so why the fuck am i even bothering
it’s exhausting
